Monday, November 16, 2009

CD 4

Started the Clomid yesterday with little fanfare. No side effects to speak of so far, luckily. My HSG is scheduled for this Thursday afternoon and the CD 12 ultrasound will be next Tuesday. I imagine the IUI will be either Wednesday, Friday or Saturday of next week. I'm hoping to keep nice and busy till then. I have two court hearings and lots of running around this week, so hopefully it will keep my mind occupied.

DH and I visited friends with a newborn on Saturday, which was somewhat bittersweet. I have been a good sport about friends' pregnancies and babies, though I tend to get a little grumpy after the visits. I know it's not rational to blame or resent others for their fertility, so I try not to go down that road. But, I do get a pretty strong streak of jealousy when I see others with their little bundles of joy. I haven't shed many tears through our 2+ year struggle with infertility, partially because I feel in my heart that there will be a resolution eventually. I can't help but get a little down in the dumps when dealing with other people's good news, because it makes me feel like the last person chosen for kickball. (oh dear, flashbacks to grade school where I really was the last person picked for kickball).

I MUST tell you about TBTL. I'm a bit of a podcast junkie. My addiction started while I was commuting three nights a week to law school and has carried over to my hour-long commute to and from work. Listening to good podcasts really makes a long drive bearable. If you want a good laugh or just an hour of amusement, I highly recommend Too Beautiful to Live. It's a podcast which airs daily and is hosted by a former NPR personality, Luke Burbank. I've been listening for about a year and can't go a day without my TBTL fix. Laughter is the best medicine, as they say.


  1. Newborns are hard. I try to avoid them! How horrible is that. You are much braver than I.

    Glad you are coping with the Clomid so hard. Hopefully the side effects some experience will stay away.

  2. I just found your blog and it is truly hard and frustrating to put on a brave happy face to be around a baby. The smell of them makes me want to cry.
    I agree that laughter is the best medicine, no matter where you get your fill!