Monday, November 30, 2009


I had a wonderful Thanksgiving and a great long weekend. I worked a few hours Friday and spent the weekend painting our kitchen and dining room. I know I'm supposed to sit around and relax, but this is the last free weekend we have till the New Year. We have back-to-back family parties for the next 2 weeks, then we're going out of town to the in-laws' for a few days. No real symptoms to speak of. I thought I felt some cramping yesterday, but it may have been my imagination. I have a bunch of internet cheapie pregnancy tests and have been taking them to see if the HCG trigger is out of my system yet. As of this morning, I still had a very faint positive, but it's getting lighter and lighter. Hopefully it will soon start getting darker!

Today marks the 9-year anniversary of my father's death. He died at age 48 of complications from Type I Diabetes. I was 22 years old and had just graduated from college when he passed. I still think of him every day. Through all his illness, pain and hardship, he never complained. He always had a smile and quick joke. I feel him looking over me and I really wish my future children could have known their grandpop. Anyway, he's here in spirit!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

CD 13 - IUI today!

The IUI went just fine. It was definitely an odd experience carrying a cup of my husband's semen to the doctor's office at 7:00 this morning! He had an early meeting and couldn't come with me, but no big deal. The count was 44 million, which is very good. I laid on the table for 10 minutes afterward and did some deep meditative breathing. Unfortunately I had to work today - some last-minute deadlines to attend to before the long weekend. I have acu tonight, which is a lucky coincidence. I'll go in next Wednesday for bloodwork, then the following week for the pg test (if AF doesn't arrive). Happy Thanksgiving everyone and I'll check back next week!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

CD 12 - IUI is tomorrow!

IUI is tomorrow! I went in this morning for my Day 12 ultrasound and they found 3 really good follies - 2 on the left and one on the right. So, I ran home and took the Ovidrel shot, then I'll go back tomorrow morning for the IUI. DH has a meeting at work in the morning, so I'll have to drop off his sample at about 7:30 am, then go back at 9 am for the IUI.

I'm having Thanksgiving at my place this year, but it will be a small group. It should be a fun and relaxing weekend. Should I drink on Thanksgiving? I've been somewhat laissez-faire about the whole alcohol thing during the whole TTC process. I'm not a big drinker, but during the 2WW I normally conclude that I'm 99% not pregnant, so I may as well have a drink. I think I may have a glass of wine with dinner and that's it. I am switching from coffee to tea and bought a bunch of green tea in preparation for the 2 week wait. Wegman's sells this awesome bottled green tea - the brand is "Ito En" and it comes from Japan. It's just pure green tea and water - no sweetener or additives or anything. My favorite is the lemongrass green tea and the mint green tea. I'll be chugging it for the next two weeks!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

CD 7 - HSG today

Today was my last day on Clomid and I also had my first HSG ever. I had heard that it can be quite painful so I took the day off work. I got to sleep in and loaf in front of the TV with the cats for a few hours this morning, which was nice! The HSG wasn't too bad - pretty painful for about 1 minute (especially when they put the dye in) and cramps for about 10 minutes afterwards. I got triple good news -- my uterus is normal, my tubes are open and my husband's semen analysis from last week came up normal!! He had a 70 million count, 50% motility, normal morphology. Yay! He must have just had a bad day when he had the first SA back in February. The doctor was very kind and said to "think positive thoughts" about this cycle, so that's what I plan to do. My ultrasound is Tuesday morning and then I'll know when the IUI will be.

I had acupuncture last night and we reviewed my charts. This is three full cycles that I've been getting acupuncture, and we lined up the charts to see the changes. The first two cycles, my temperatures never rose above 98.0, which my TCM doc said means that my body isn't ovulating "strongly" enough. This last cycle, I had a few days in the low 98's, which she says means that my body is responding to the treatment. I've enjoyed TCM a lot more than I thought I would - I really look forward to my weekly sessions. I get relaxed as soon as I get up on the table. I'll continue the treatment during my IUI cycles (and hopefully pregnancy if that happens).

I'll check back in Tuesday after the ultrasound.

Monday, November 16, 2009

CD 4

Started the Clomid yesterday with little fanfare. No side effects to speak of so far, luckily. My HSG is scheduled for this Thursday afternoon and the CD 12 ultrasound will be next Tuesday. I imagine the IUI will be either Wednesday, Friday or Saturday of next week. I'm hoping to keep nice and busy till then. I have two court hearings and lots of running around this week, so hopefully it will keep my mind occupied.

DH and I visited friends with a newborn on Saturday, which was somewhat bittersweet. I have been a good sport about friends' pregnancies and babies, though I tend to get a little grumpy after the visits. I know it's not rational to blame or resent others for their fertility, so I try not to go down that road. But, I do get a pretty strong streak of jealousy when I see others with their little bundles of joy. I haven't shed many tears through our 2+ year struggle with infertility, partially because I feel in my heart that there will be a resolution eventually. I can't help but get a little down in the dumps when dealing with other people's good news, because it makes me feel like the last person chosen for kickball. (oh dear, flashbacks to grade school where I really was the last person picked for kickball).

I MUST tell you about TBTL. I'm a bit of a podcast junkie. My addiction started while I was commuting three nights a week to law school and has carried over to my hour-long commute to and from work. Listening to good podcasts really makes a long drive bearable. If you want a good laugh or just an hour of amusement, I highly recommend Too Beautiful to Live. It's a podcast which airs daily and is hosted by a former NPR personality, Luke Burbank. I've been listening for about a year and can't go a day without my TBTL fix. Laughter is the best medicine, as they say.

Friday, November 13, 2009

CD1 - It begins!

Well, here goes nothing! AF arrived right on time this morning and so it begins. The practice I go to does IUI's generally on CD14, lucky for me it falls squarely on Thanksgiving Day. So, it will most likely be the day before or after. It would be awesome if it was the day after, however, since I will already be off work and can loaf away the whole weekend. I got my Ovidrel shot in the mail yesterday and there was a little bag of Hershey's kisses in the box as well! What a nice touch. I'll start the Clomid on Sunday. Hopefully the side effects won't be too gnarly. I found out this week that a good friend is pregnant. She has been through a lot of infertility treatment, including loss of twins in the second trimester, and finally had a healthy daughter after an IUI. This baby was a surprise. I'm thrilled for her, because she's been through a lot. I'm waiting for the RE to call me back so I can schedule everything (I'm having an HSG this month as well, in addition to all the IUI stuff). I'm anxious to put the dates on my calendar!

Monday, November 9, 2009

The Countdown Begins...

I'm in the final week of my last "natural" cycle, before starting my first IUI cycle! I'm at CD 24, so probably will get AF by the end of the week. I was holding on to a little bit of hope that I may have miraculously become pregnant this month, but my temperature dropped today so all signs point to "no".

In other news, a dear friend who conceived through IVF gave birth to her son on Friday, 5 weeks premature. Both are doing fine, though he will probably be in the NICU for a few days until he is 35 weeks. He was nearly 6 pounds at birth, though, and is breathing and eating well. Visiting her and the baby gives me hope that a miracle can happen for me too.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Welcome to yet another infertility blog...

Greetings to all who come this way! Come, have a seat. Make yourselves comfortable. Mind the cat hair on the sofa. I've been reading infertility blogs and commenting on them somewhat frequently, so I figured I'd join the scrum since I'm about to start treatment myself. I'm Francie. I'm a 31-year-old lawyer living in the Northeast USA, been married for nearly 5 years, trying to conceive for since December 2007 (and "not preventing" since December 2006) with no success. Next month I'll be starting my first IUI with Clomid and Ovidrel. We'll see how it goes. The cause of the infertility isn't clear. After the first year or so, we saw an RE who discovered a large polyp in my uterus. Lap surgery done in April '09 and it was removed, along with some mild endometriosis as a bonus feature. We've been trying naturally since then with no success. I have never, ever gotten pregnant. My husband's first semen analysis came up "a little low" according to the RE, but I have never seen the results so I don't know what that means. We have started with a new RE, who recommended doing IUI's with Clomid and Ovidrel for 3 months, and see where it gets us. I'm excited but also very aware that it may fail repeatedly, so I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much. Thanks for reading!