Sunday, March 28, 2010


Well, back to the drawing board. AF arrived today, CD 28, as expected. This was our 25th month trying to conceive. I have NEVER had a positive pregnancy test, not once. I had 4 follicles this time, 3 last time, good sperm counts, and still negative. I'm really starting to lose hope that we will ever conceive a child. On paper, everything looks normal. But, there must be some reason that we're not getting pregnant. I don't know how much more of this I can take.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

CD 27 / 12 DP IUI - losing hope...

Things aren't looking too good. Another BFN this morning and my temp is dropping (it's gone from 98.5 to 98.2 over the last few days). Also, having my usual pre-period cramps. It looks like another one bites the dust. Pretty bummed out. I now need to decide whether we'll have another IUI this coming month or hold it off. I kind of want to get this one out of the way so we can decide what to do next.

Friday, March 26, 2010

CD 26 - 11DP IUI

I tested this morning at 11DPO with a First Response - negatory. I'd been "testing out" the HCG trigger and still had a faint positive 2 days ago, but today it was stark white. I'm having some symptoms but nothing I haven't felt before. I've had cramping on and off the last few days. It ain't over till "flo" shows up, though. After the last post, my temperature did go up. It just took a few extra days for some reason. We'll see how it goes over the weekend. If I'm not pregnant, I expect Aunt Flo on Sunday. If not, I'll have a beta on Monday morning. I'll check back in one way or the other!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

CD 19 - WTF??

Here we are at CD 19. I've been charting my temperature (mostly out of old habit, I guess) but I find it very strange that my temperature hasn't shifted. WTF?? It's normally up in the 98's by now. I'm pretty sure I ovulated, but I don't understand what is going on. I guess my Monday morning progesterone level will tell. No symptoms to speak of yet, though it's early. I peed on a stick today and still have HCG in my urine, same as last time. Who knows what's going on this cycle...

Monday, March 15, 2010

CD 15 - IUI day

I had the IUI this morning. It went fine - DH's post-wash count was 38.5 mil. Not too shabby. The doc said anything over 10 mil for an IUI is good. I noticed in the notes that the person who did the sperm wash wrote "rare agglutination, pre-wash" on the IUI workup sheet. The doctor didn't say anything about it, but I wonder if there is an issue with his semen after all. The timing is a little better this cycle, because I think I ovulated last night or this morning. I'll try to keep my cool over the next two weeks!

Friday, March 12, 2010

CD 12 Ultrasound

The ultrasound and bloodwork were this morning. There were two "dominant" follicles and 2 more which were slightly smaller. If I remember correctly (the nurse just gave me a quick look at her notes), one measured about 20, the other 18, and the other two 15 or 16. I'll do the Ovidrel injection tomorrow night and then go in Monday morning for the IUI.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

CD 11 - my ovaries are exploding

Here we are at CD 11. I finished the Clomid on Sunday and I feel like my ovaries are about to explode. My left one was really bothering me on Sunday, now rightie has joined in the fun. My CD12 ultrasound is tomorrow, so we'll find out soon how many follies there are. Day 14 falls on Sunday and my RE isn't open on weekends (I don't think, anyway) so the IUI will most likely be Monday morning. I had hot yoga last night. I'll probably skip it during the 2ww, because the combination of the heat, twisting and ab work may not be implantation-friendly. If anything, I'll do a hatha class instead. I walked 10 miles last week and trying to do the same this week. Still not in a great place mentally this cycle - I'm trying not to get my hopes up at all so as not to be disappointed if this one isn't successful. Twice in the last 2 weeks, I've found myself near tears when talking to friends about this IUI and the frustration I've been feeling through this whole process. I'll check in tomorrow after the ultrasound.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

IUI, Take 2

My new cycle started yesterday, so IUI #2 is go. I'm feeling much differently this time - all the optimism and excitement I had last time around is gone. I was holding out the delusion that perhaps I would get pregnant last month and get to call off the IUI, but no such luck. I was feeling particularly sorry for myself over the weekend after going to lunch with some friends and their beautiful babies. I'm not one to resent others for their normal fertility or avoid situations where I may encounter a pregnancy or baby, but sometimes its just gets to me, you know? So, I'm feeling pretty down and discouraged at the moment. I just want to get through this one and try not to hold out too much hope that it will succeed. I warned my husband that if this one fails, I'm going to lose my sh*t. Clomid starts tomorrow (fun!)