Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Well, Spring has definitely sprung here in NJ. The trees are blooming, flowers everywhere, it's really gorgeous. We took a nice trip to Florida (though the weather wasn't so great) and had some nice quality time with my hubby. I have taken a total break from dealing with my infertility. (I mean TOTAL - I suspended my fertility friend account, no OPK's, no charting, and I don't honestly know what cycle day I am on). Though I still think about it every day, it's not an all-consuming obsession like it has been the last few months. I ran a 5K last Saturday and have been spending time with family. We may not do the 3rd IUI in May - some family activities are interfering with the scheduling of it and we would be out of town on CD12 and 14. So, it may be June or July. No biggie, this break has been great!
Monday, April 5, 2010
Still here, hanging in there. I honestly didn't have my hopes up last cycle, but for some reason this IUI failure broke me. I was inconsolable for 2 days. I just wanted this to work so badly. I really, really don't want to have to move on to injectables or IVF, though I will if I have to. This month we're taking a break. I've put my fertility friend account on hold and won't even log in. I'm not keeping track of this cycle at all this month - I just need a total break. We're going to Florida for a much-needed long weekend away this weekend. We'll do IUI #3 with Clomid in May, then go from there. I have thought about taking a few months off completely from TTC, but I feel the months and years ticking by. I turned 32 yesterday and my husband will be 39 this year. I know I'm on the younger end of the infertility spectrum, but it's already taken us over 2 years to get to this point and I don't think we can wait anymore. I haven't been back to acupuncture and am concentrating right now on my physical fitness. I'm sick and tired of this whole infertility thing!