Thanks for your sympathy and good wishes. You guys are a great support. This cycle failure is finally starting to sink in and I'm ashamed to say I broke down in tears on the flight home from our vacation. It's getting to be too much for me to handle. I can't believe I have had 2 failed IVF cycles. I really thought this would be the solution to our problems. I feel like I'm starting to become one of those "veteran" IVF-ers, with many failed cycles, and I'm really losing hope that this will ever happen for us. We're coming up on 4 years of trying to conceive. I just can't believe we're at this point. Everyone I know in real life has gotten pregnant with or without treatment by now. My only friend who did IVF got pregnant on her first try. People are really starting to pity me. It's depressing.
That said, I'm stepping away from the blog and Fertility Friend. I need some time to concentrate on myself and not think about infertility. As happy as I am to see my blog friends and FF buddies get their BFP's, I'm really starting to feel like the person left out of the party. I'll try to comment when I can, but I just need a break from it all.
So sorry Francie, I know exactly how you feel. I have taken many breaks myself and they do help. I have to say you are lucky you are young, I know you expected to be pregnant by now, but at least you have time on your side. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI completely understand the break. Take care of yourself, and I hope to see you emerge again soon. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about feeling left behind. I still get envious of the women who got pregnant from IUI, or on their first IVF. It's so hard not to compare yourself with others, or to let others' successes seem like your own failure. But you are on your own journey, and I still have so much optimism for you. A break is probably a good idea, so that you can regroup and come back ready to conquer this! And I know you will, although it may not be as soon as you wanted it to happen (like 4 years ago!).
ReplyDeletetotally understood!! i hope the break does great things for you!! for me, taking a break was the best thing i ever could have done!! best of luck!
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Hang in there. IVF and infertility is hard work and it sucks! Best wishes and take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI have a daughter with fertility issues so I always read the blogs. She said that suck and beyond sucks. I am here to say don't give up hope ever! Keep trying and eventually you will succeed. My prayers go out to you.
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