CD 19 - WTF??

Here we are at CD 19. I've been charting my temperature (mostly out of old habit, I guess) but I find it very strange that my temperature hasn't shifted. WTF?? It's normally up in the 98's by now. I'm pretty sure I ovulated, but I don't understand what is going on. I guess my Monday morning progesterone level will tell. No symptoms to speak of yet, though it's early. I peed on a stick today and still have HCG in my urine, same as last time. Who knows what's going on this cycle...

CD 15 - IUI day

I had the IUI this morning. It went fine - DH's post-wash count was 38.5 mil. Not too shabby. The doc said anything over 10 mil for an IUI is good. I noticed in the notes that the person who did the sperm wash wrote "rare agglutination, pre-wash" on the IUI workup sheet. The doctor didn't say anything about it, but I wonder if there is an issue with his semen after all. The timing is a little better this cycle, because I think I ovulated last night or this morning. I'll try to keep my cool over the next two weeks!

CD 12 Ultrasound

The ultrasound and bloodwork were this morning. There were two "dominant" follicles and 2 more which were slightly smaller. If I remember correctly (the nurse just gave me a quick look at her notes), one measured about 20, the other 18, and the other two 15 or 16. I'll do the Ovidrel injection tomorrow night and then go in Monday morning for the IUI.

CD 11 - my ovaries are exploding

Here we are at CD 11. I finished the Clomid on Sunday and I feel like my ovaries are about to explode. My left one was really bothering me on Sunday, now rightie has joined in the fun. My CD12 ultrasound is tomorrow, so we'll find out soon how many follies there are. Day 14 falls on Sunday and my RE isn't open on weekends (I don't think, anyway) so the IUI will most likely be Monday morning. I had hot yoga last night. I'll probably skip it during the 2ww, because the combination of the heat, twisting and ab work may not be implantation-friendly. If anything, I'll do a hatha class instead. I walked 10 miles last week and trying to do the same this week. Still not in a great place mentally this cycle - I'm trying not to get my hopes up at all so as not to be disappointed if this one isn't successful. Twice in the last 2 weeks, I've found myself near tears when talking to friends about this IUI and the frustration I've been feeling through this whole process. I'll check in tomorrow after the ultrasound.

IUI, Take 2

My new cycle started yesterday, so IUI #2 is go. I'm feeling much differently this time - all the optimism and excitement I had last time around is gone. I was holding out the delusion that perhaps I would get pregnant last month and get to call off the IUI, but no such luck. I was feeling particularly sorry for myself over the weekend after going to lunch with some friends and their beautiful babies. I'm not one to resent others for their normal fertility or avoid situations where I may encounter a pregnancy or baby, but sometimes its just gets to me, you know? So, I'm feeling pretty down and discouraged at the moment. I just want to get through this one and try not to hold out too much hope that it will succeed. I warned my husband that if this one fails, I'm going to lose my sh*t. Clomid starts tomorrow (fun!)

Happy Saturday!

I had a weird dream last night. My acupuncturist told me I was pregnant and gave me some sort of weird treatment involving giant tea bags all over my body. Also, her office was in Canada (Olympics much?) in some strange city I've never seen before. I remember thinking in my dream that I could finally try poutine. I've had a lot of pregnancy and birth dreams over the years (going back to when I was about 14 years old!) I don't take much stock in dreams, but I do find them amusing!

On a total fitness kick right now - I signed up for a 5K in April and also a program where you walk 10 miles a week for a month. I'm still doing hot yoga and feel like I'm getting stronger. Not much weight loss, though.

I ordered the Ovidrel and it will be delivered Friday. If things go as planned, the IUI will be around the 15th of March. I'm not particularly excited about this one after the disappointment of the last one. But, maybe I'll get lucky this time. Next month will be the last chance for a 2010 baby, cause the due date will be in December.

Thanks for the support and I hope everyone is doing great!

Countdown to IUI#2

We're officially counting down to IUI #2! I'm calling my RE tomorrow to get the Rx's for Clomid and Ovidrel called in. I'm only on day 8 of this cycle, but I want to make sure everything is lined up for next month. If by some miracle of God I get pregnant this month, I won't need the meds, but I'm not counting on it (if the last 26 cycles are any indication, anyway.) I'm not sure I'll even tell anyone about this next IUI, not even my mom or MIL. It's bad enough that we're going through the emotional ups and downs of infertility to make them go through it as well. My MIL told me she cried and cried when the last IUI failed. My mom remarked last time she saw me that she hoped next time we saw each other I'd be pregnant. I feel like I'm letting them down! Fingers crossed, girls...