CD 12 Ultrasound

The ultrasound and bloodwork were this morning. There were two "dominant" follicles and 2 more which were slightly smaller. If I remember correctly (the nurse just gave me a quick look at her notes), one measured about 20, the other 18, and the other two 15 or 16. I'll do the Ovidrel injection tomorrow night and then go in Monday morning for the IUI.

CD 11 - my ovaries are exploding

Here we are at CD 11. I finished the Clomid on Sunday and I feel like my ovaries are about to explode. My left one was really bothering me on Sunday, now rightie has joined in the fun. My CD12 ultrasound is tomorrow, so we'll find out soon how many follies there are. Day 14 falls on Sunday and my RE isn't open on weekends (I don't think, anyway) so the IUI will most likely be Monday morning. I had hot yoga last night. I'll probably skip it during the 2ww, because the combination of the heat, twisting and ab work may not be implantation-friendly. If anything, I'll do a hatha class instead. I walked 10 miles last week and trying to do the same this week. Still not in a great place mentally this cycle - I'm trying not to get my hopes up at all so as not to be disappointed if this one isn't successful. Twice in the last 2 weeks, I've found myself near tears when talking to friends about this IUI and the frustration I've been feeling through this whole process. I'll check in tomorrow after the ultrasound.

IUI, Take 2

My new cycle started yesterday, so IUI #2 is go. I'm feeling much differently this time - all the optimism and excitement I had last time around is gone. I was holding out the delusion that perhaps I would get pregnant last month and get to call off the IUI, but no such luck. I was feeling particularly sorry for myself over the weekend after going to lunch with some friends and their beautiful babies. I'm not one to resent others for their normal fertility or avoid situations where I may encounter a pregnancy or baby, but sometimes its just gets to me, you know? So, I'm feeling pretty down and discouraged at the moment. I just want to get through this one and try not to hold out too much hope that it will succeed. I warned my husband that if this one fails, I'm going to lose my sh*t. Clomid starts tomorrow (fun!)

Happy Saturday!

I had a weird dream last night. My acupuncturist told me I was pregnant and gave me some sort of weird treatment involving giant tea bags all over my body. Also, her office was in Canada (Olympics much?) in some strange city I've never seen before. I remember thinking in my dream that I could finally try poutine. I've had a lot of pregnancy and birth dreams over the years (going back to when I was about 14 years old!) I don't take much stock in dreams, but I do find them amusing!

On a total fitness kick right now - I signed up for a 5K in April and also a program where you walk 10 miles a week for a month. I'm still doing hot yoga and feel like I'm getting stronger. Not much weight loss, though.

I ordered the Ovidrel and it will be delivered Friday. If things go as planned, the IUI will be around the 15th of March. I'm not particularly excited about this one after the disappointment of the last one. But, maybe I'll get lucky this time. Next month will be the last chance for a 2010 baby, cause the due date will be in December.

Thanks for the support and I hope everyone is doing great!

Countdown to IUI#2

We're officially counting down to IUI #2! I'm calling my RE tomorrow to get the Rx's for Clomid and Ovidrel called in. I'm only on day 8 of this cycle, but I want to make sure everything is lined up for next month. If by some miracle of God I get pregnant this month, I won't need the meds, but I'm not counting on it (if the last 26 cycles are any indication, anyway.) I'm not sure I'll even tell anyone about this next IUI, not even my mom or MIL. It's bad enough that we're going through the emotional ups and downs of infertility to make them go through it as well. My MIL told me she cried and cried when the last IUI failed. My mom remarked last time she saw me that she hoped next time we saw each other I'd be pregnant. I feel like I'm letting them down! Fingers crossed, girls...

Moving on...

Still here - still alive! The last two "natural" months have not worked. Timing has been an issue - the fertile window fell Christmas week in December and we had company, which made "doing the deed" a little difficult. Then in mid-January, my husband broke his arm snowboarding and was totally wacked out on meds during the fertile window. So, to be fair, we didn't "try" as much as we should have. We will do one more natural month, then another IUI in March. Work has been INSANELY busy and I've been in court multiple times a week for the last two weeks. I'm almost completely off the Zoloft and feeling good and positive. I've started Weight Watchers and am trying to stick with the plan, though I've been somewhat lax about it. I was thinking about completely cutting out sugar and dairy for a month or two, but I don't think it's a good diet for TTC. I also started a new power hot yoga class which is awesome! Hope everyone is doing great.

Checking in... happy new year everyone. We are still in our "just relaxing" phase, probably won't do another IUI until at least February. I am continuing with the TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine). I saw my TCM lady last night and we looked at my charts for the last 5 cycles (since I started TCM). You can definitely see a shift in my temperatures, especially during the luteal phase. They have gone up into the mid-98's and my luteal phase has gotten a little bit longer. She once again says that she really thinks I can conceive naturally, as long as we have intercourse at least 3x during the fertile window. We'll see if she's right. I'm also weaning myself off Zoloft, which I have been taking for about 3 months after a pretty severe bout of depression. I've been feeling much better and am hoping that the TCM will help my moods as well.