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Thursday, November 17, 2011

I've had mixed feelings this week about my positive betas and pregnancy.  I feel somewhat guilty that this cycle worked out, because I know it hurts as an infertile to see others' successful cycles.  I don't want it to seem that I'm bragging or gloating about this outcome.  On the other hand, I AM excited that we've gotten this far and want to share these feelings with the community.

To my infertile sisters, I know it stings to see others' BFP's when you're still in the trenches.  I've watched countless bloggers and friends around me get pregnant and have babies, and I can totally relate to the pain and loneliness infertility causes.  That said, I do plan to post about my pregnancy on this blog.  I will totally understand if you want to unsubscribe to the blog and I'll try to be as sensitive and honest as possible.  Despite my good news, I am still infertile.  I suffered through 4 years of disappointment and failed treatments, and that pain doesn't just go away overnight.

8 comments:

  1. It is hard to be a part of this community in many ways, it is also incredible & helpful. Don't feel guilty, your bfp is hard fought. If our IF sisters never had success it would be hard to find inspiration and hope.
    I am thrilled for you!

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  2. I hear you. I felt the same way when I got the BFP.
    I am so very happy for you. Can't wait to hear about Friday's results!

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  3. Don't feel guilty at all! I do appreciate this post though!

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  4. You give us hope. It's the fertile myrtles who get preggers in one try that annoy me!

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  5. Your journey through infertility will always stay with you. When we were dismissed from the fertility clinic and given two very cute and cuddly twin stuffed bears for our twins, I felt very guilty walking out of the office and past all of the women/couples waiting in the waiting area with our parting gifts. After breaking into tears on our way out of the clinic, my husband reminded me that we had seen others with the same gift bag months earlier, and that had only given us hope that treatments were working for others. As pork chop noted, you give others who are still struggling hope that it can all work out!

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  6. I don't think we'll ever forget what we went through to have our children. At least we'll treasure and cherish each and every moment with them. =) So excited for you and excited to see how many babies you have growing!!!!! =)

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  7. Congratulations dear. I am crying as I am reading this post not because of jealousy but because of joy. Thank you for being such an inspiration!

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  8. I am a new subscriber (a few weeks ago) and I am struggling to get pregnant but I will NOT unsubscribe just because you've been blessed.

    I cannot wait to read your pregnancy posts! :)

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