Heartbeat!!

I saw the heartbeat this morning!!  I didn't realize it would be visible this early, but there it was, flickering away.  This is still pretty unreal.  I'm still feeling pretty well, but I've had some nausea on and off the last few days. 

I thought I'd share one of my favorite videos (the song in the background is "Heartbeats" by Jose Gonzalez.)  Just ignore the fact that it's a commercial!

First ultrasound

I had my first ultrasound this morning.  Everything is looking fine so far.  There's just one in there (apparently).  My next one will be next Monday.  My mom came with me and was very excited to see the ultrasound with me.  Thank you guys again for all your well wishes.  I really appreciate it and am glad that some readers are still rooting for me!

There's not much to see, but in case you ever wanted to know what a 5 week, 2 day ultrasound looks like, here it is:

I've had mixed feelings this week about my positive betas and pregnancy.  I feel somewhat guilty that this cycle worked out, because I know it hurts as an infertile to see others' successful cycles.  I don't want it to seem that I'm bragging or gloating about this outcome.  On the other hand, I AM excited that we've gotten this far and want to share these feelings with the community.

To my infertile sisters, I know it stings to see others' BFP's when you're still in the trenches.  I've watched countless bloggers and friends around me get pregnant and have babies, and I can totally relate to the pain and loneliness infertility causes.  That said, I do plan to post about my pregnancy on this blog.  I will totally understand if you want to unsubscribe to the blog and I'll try to be as sensitive and honest as possible.  Despite my good news, I am still infertile.  I suffered through 4 years of disappointment and failed treatments, and that pain doesn't just go away overnight.

2nd beta...

I had my 2nd beta this morning and it was 1378.  It could either be twins or just a really fast grower.  I'll find out at my ultrasound on Monday!

Beta result...

278!!!

We're off to a good start.  Repeat beta will be Thursday and possibly an ultrasound on Monday.

In shock!

Thank you guys so much for the well wishes!  You guys rock.  I'm still quite shocked with the positive tests.  I tested again this morning and it was a good, strong line, just a little darker than yesterday.  I haven't had lines like this before, in all these years.  I have put all this time and money into treatments, but the thought of success has been so remote in my mind.  We still have a long way to go, though, so I'm trying to keep my enthusiasm in check.

Bunny doesn't "believe" in HPT's - he won't be convinced I'm pregnant until I have the positive beta.  He didn't want to see the positive test and he wouldn't allow me to tell him about my possible due date or anything like that last night.  We've been disappointed before with the chemical pregnancies, so he's really guarded. 

Symptom-wise, I feel pretty normal.  I don't "feel" pregnant.  I'm very hungry and thirsty all the time, but I think that is a side effect of the progesterone.  My boobs are starting to get a little tender, but nothing I haven't felt before.  I've had some cramping and twinges down there, but it could be related to the constipation and gas.  We're at the shore for the 3-day weekend visiting my MIL.  As much as I want to shout the news from the rooftops, I won't tell her until next weekend at the soonest.  I can't wait for Monday to get here!

Drumroll please....

No words.

Progesterone is A-OK

I had bloodwork today and my progesterone and E2 levels are fine.  I guess that makes it worth shoving that stuff up my hoo-haa three times a day. 

The cramp I had yesterday is gone today.  Feeling pretty much normal, other than the usual progesterone-related insatiable hunger and thirst.  I had two breakfasts today and have had to keep snacks in my desk for my almost constant need to shove food in my pie-hole. 

I made a serindipitous discovery at work today - two Answer pregnancy tests in my work makeup bag!  I think they are from the last FET.  I'm going to take them home, they'll come in handy this weekend.

Symptom obsession time!

It's that time again - symptom obsession time!  I am 3dp 5dt / 8 DPO today (or 3dp 6dt, 9 DPO, depending on how you look at it).  Feeling pretty good, but I've had a cramp in my lower abdomen since I woke up this morning.  It's localized in the same spot all day, on the left side about 4 inches down and over from my belly button.  Implantation??  Maybe... then again I haven't gone #2 since yesterday!  (dang progesterone)  Maybe it's a bit early to obsess over symptoms, but I wanted to make a note of this one.  I must pat myself on the back for disabling my fertility friend account, which will keep me from totally obsessing.  POAS starts Thursday!

PUPO, take 3!

Here are our two embabies that were transferred earlier today.  The top one is a Day 6 blast in "good" condition, the bottom one is a Day 5 blast in "fair" condition.   The third embryo they thawed, also a Day 5, didn't look good so they didn't transfer it.  They'll  keep an eye on it and possibly re-freeze it.  The transfer went smoothly, though it was about a 45-minute wait to see the doctor because he was out on some emergency.  My bladder was painfully full, which was pretty unpleasant with such a long wait.  They have me on complete bed rest till tomorrow, so I'm currently camped out in bed with two cats, a few New Yorker magazines and a Bridesmaids DVD.  I'll have a blood draw on Tuesday to check progesterone level and the beta will be the following Monday!  Positive vibes appreciated!