Postponing the cycle....

We've decided to put the IVF cycle off until the New Year.  We made the decision for a variety of reasons, some of which I'd rather not go into here.  The bottom line is that neither of us is ready, emotionally, for the rollercoaster that comes with treatment.  So, Happy Holidays, Happy New Year, and I'll get back on here once we're rolling.

That old green-eyed monster....

Funny how even after you've successfully given birth, you still have those old, ugly infertility feelings.  I heard two pregnancy announcements this week and I'm so jealous!!  In one case, the friend experienced 10 years of infertility and never thought she would have children (she chose not to undergo any treatment).  She had her son a few months before mine was born, now is expecting #2.  The other friend is on her third!  Of course I am happy for them and would never begrudge them their happiness, but I still have that creeping jealousy.  It's still hard for me to believe that people can get pregnant, just like that. 

I got my meds for the upcoming cycle this week.  It's somewhat surreal that I'm about to go through all this again!

IVF #2, coming soon..

We're in the final stages of preparation for IVF #2.  We're doing it with great reluctance, because we were really hopeful for a natural BFP this time.  Alas, it was not to be.  The meds are on their way, bloodwork and testing is almost done, so it will be "all systems go" in about 3 weeks.  This time, I'm doing a Ganirelix / Menopur protocol rather than the old Lupron / BCP lead-up cycle.  That is fine with me, it means less meds and a shorter cycle.  This doc also only does 3-day transfers.  At first, I was a little skeptical.  Then I remembered that I did two 5-day transfers with no success, so I guess I'm OK with it.  If this IVF and its resulting embryos don't result in a pregnancy, then we are done.  We are very happy with our little guy, we were just hoping to complete our family with a sibling.  Wish me luck!

I'm back! Still infertile!

*Parenting / baby mentioned*

Well, hello there!  Anyone actually out there?  I'm back!  It's been almost a year since my last post, but I thought I'd post an update.  Baby S turned 1 a week and a half ago and is doing great.  He's walking and starting to talk.  An absolute delight.

Those of you who are still struggling to conceive #1, I hereby give you permission to cry me a river, starting now.  We started TTC #2 when S was about 9 months old.  I had the delusion that having S had somehow cured me of infertility, especially seeing several blog and fertility friends get pg naturally after IF.  Yep, you guessed it, still infertile.  The worst part is that these failed attempts have brought back a lot of ugly infertility feelings that I had suppressed since I got pregnant with S.  So, that's been fun.

I'm consulting with the RE on Monday, and we'll go from there.  Not quite ready for IVF #2, but may as well get the show on the road, being that I'm now 35 and the Bunny just turned 42.  I'll let you know how it goes.