It's official - BFN

It's official that this one was a BFN.  Must have been a chemical or something.  They say that the digital tests don't lie, but I guess this one did.  The tests last night and this morning were clearly negative, then AF arrived.  It sure was fun to be pregnant for 2 days.  I'm going to call and cancel my beta for Monday.  The sucky thing is that I told my husband and he was super excited. 

I'm thinking that we may start IVF in the New Year.  This IUI was picture perfect and it failed.  I don't see the point of doing more IUI's if they're not going to work.

Inconclusive...

I tested today and yesterday and the results are, well... inconclusive.  I guess that's my punishment for testing too early.  Yesterday I tested in the morning with an "internet cheapie" and it had a faint second line.  I tested after work with a FRER and it was also very, very faintly positive.  This morning, both the internet cheapie and the FRER were negative.  I thought, what the hell, and peed on a digital and it was positive.  So, no big announcement yet.  I thought I'd have a blaring positive and be able to make a big announcement here, but it looks like it won't be official till I see a beta.  Here's a pic for your viewing pleasure...

7 DP monitoring appointment...

I had my 7 DP IUI monitoring appointment this morning.  They drew blood to check my progesterone level and I learned my number from last cycle - it was 34, I think.  They also did an ultrasound to check on my ovaries.  The right one was pretty big and had 2 corpus lutei.  There was a pocket of fluid outside my right ovary but the doctor said it should resolve itself.  The left ovary was huge! and there were also 2 or 3 corpus lutei.  She said I really need to take it easy until the ovaries get back to their normal size.  I'll need to make it through this week and maybe I'll test on Friday or Saturday.

5 DP IUI...

Not much to report at the moment.  Bunny is camping this weekend, so I'm at home alone with the kitties, cooking up a storm.  Tonight I'll go to the Philadelphia Film Festival and out to dinner with my sister in law.  I made homemade chicken tortilla soup for lunch, check out the deliciousness...

I'll attempt homemade won tons tomorrow.  Yum!

I'm not testing out the trigger this cycle.  Why bother?  It's fun to see those positive HPT's, but once they go negative it's a bummer.  I know the trigger is probably out of my system by now.  I'll try and wait to test until around 11 DPO or so, which is next Saturday I believe.  I've had really bad dreams during the 2 week wait, both last cycle and this cycle.  Last night I dreamed that I was undergoing chemotherapy.  I literally thought to myself in my dream "this will kill the babies for sure, if there are any."  How depressing!!  Let's hope this week goes by quickly and that there is a BFP on the other side!

Post-IUI report

The IUI was this morning.  It went very well - the post-wash count was 43 million!  I think an extra day of abstaining helped achieve a higher number.  Ovulation pain started this morning, so I think the timing was just right.  Let's hope I catch a break this cycle.

EDITED TO ADD:
I just realized that I didn't provide an update on Saturday.  Well, I turned out to have 5 mature follicles when I went for monitoring Saturday morning.  There were at least 3 in the 18+ mm range.  The doctor said that I'll have a high risk for multiples and wanted to make sure I was open to selective reduction.  So, it looks like I'll hopefully ovulate at least 2 or 3 mature eggs.

Triggering tomorrow...

Things aren't growing as quickly as I thought.  The largest follie I had this morning was at about 17, with a few others in the 14-15 range.  I'm going to go in for monitoring again tomorrow, probably trigger then, and the IUI has been pushed to Monday.  I put all my injectables stuff away last night cause I thought I'd taken my last shot, but I guess I'll be cracking another vial of Follistim tonight.  I can't wait for this cycle to be over.

Almost time to trigger...

I'm feeling better, still not 100% but the ear is feeling much better.  I had my monitoring appointment yesterday morning and the largest follie was on the left and measuring about 18.  I had a few smaller ones in the 14-15 range.  It looks like I'll probably only ovulate one mature egg.  I'm still on 275 units of the Follistim. They'll probably have me trigger tomorrow morning during my monitoring appointment, then do the IUI on Saturday (they don't open on Sundays). The timing of the trigger annoys me somewhat (since it's less than 36 hours before the IUI), but I guess it's the best they can do.  My lining looked good, I think it was 9 mm.  If I get a BFP, great.  If not, at least I'll have a 2-month break from treatment.