Heartbeat!!

I saw the heartbeat this morning!!  I didn't realize it would be visible this early, but there it was, flickering away.  This is still pretty unreal.  I'm still feeling pretty well, but I've had some nausea on and off the last few days. 

I thought I'd share one of my favorite videos (the song in the background is "Heartbeats" by Jose Gonzalez.)  Just ignore the fact that it's a commercial!

First ultrasound

I had my first ultrasound this morning.  Everything is looking fine so far.  There's just one in there (apparently).  My next one will be next Monday.  My mom came with me and was very excited to see the ultrasound with me.  Thank you guys again for all your well wishes.  I really appreciate it and am glad that some readers are still rooting for me!

There's not much to see, but in case you ever wanted to know what a 5 week, 2 day ultrasound looks like, here it is:

I've had mixed feelings this week about my positive betas and pregnancy.  I feel somewhat guilty that this cycle worked out, because I know it hurts as an infertile to see others' successful cycles.  I don't want it to seem that I'm bragging or gloating about this outcome.  On the other hand, I AM excited that we've gotten this far and want to share these feelings with the community.

To my infertile sisters, I know it stings to see others' BFP's when you're still in the trenches.  I've watched countless bloggers and friends around me get pregnant and have babies, and I can totally relate to the pain and loneliness infertility causes.  That said, I do plan to post about my pregnancy on this blog.  I will totally understand if you want to unsubscribe to the blog and I'll try to be as sensitive and honest as possible.  Despite my good news, I am still infertile.  I suffered through 4 years of disappointment and failed treatments, and that pain doesn't just go away overnight.

2nd beta...

I had my 2nd beta this morning and it was 1378.  It could either be twins or just a really fast grower.  I'll find out at my ultrasound on Monday!

Beta result...

278!!!

We're off to a good start.  Repeat beta will be Thursday and possibly an ultrasound on Monday.

In shock!

Thank you guys so much for the well wishes!  You guys rock.  I'm still quite shocked with the positive tests.  I tested again this morning and it was a good, strong line, just a little darker than yesterday.  I haven't had lines like this before, in all these years.  I have put all this time and money into treatments, but the thought of success has been so remote in my mind.  We still have a long way to go, though, so I'm trying to keep my enthusiasm in check.

Bunny doesn't "believe" in HPT's - he won't be convinced I'm pregnant until I have the positive beta.  He didn't want to see the positive test and he wouldn't allow me to tell him about my possible due date or anything like that last night.  We've been disappointed before with the chemical pregnancies, so he's really guarded. 

Symptom-wise, I feel pretty normal.  I don't "feel" pregnant.  I'm very hungry and thirsty all the time, but I think that is a side effect of the progesterone.  My boobs are starting to get a little tender, but nothing I haven't felt before.  I've had some cramping and twinges down there, but it could be related to the constipation and gas.  We're at the shore for the 3-day weekend visiting my MIL.  As much as I want to shout the news from the rooftops, I won't tell her until next weekend at the soonest.  I can't wait for Monday to get here!

Drumroll please....

No words.